waves between sand
- Jassyy bonsai
- Aug 15, 2022
- 2 min read
Meandering endlessly, then the sea was in sight. Walked over and touched it, but it acted differently. Is it a sea, or a blue desert?
I walked over it but then there's still a shallow part of me that I can never reach, what to do, and what is it. I suddenly felt like it was something I have been yearning for.
Farther and farther from the shore, I swam faster, never got enough, I drowned. Where is hope, I supposed it was in-depth in the sea. I felt the fall.
Blue. When I opened my eyes, it was all blue, it felt like the infinite wonders I had, it felt like there was no way out. I felt suffocated, but there is breath.
Raising my head, a wave seemed to go after me, furious and unapologetic. It roars and bellows, I then wondered, for a tranquil place, why was it enraged. It was then that I realized that it was not a wave, but a sandstorm.
Not water, but sand, nor hope but grief from the past. Remembering the places I passed as I was dashing, for years, I was running away. How could this be any dissimilar?
I hoped and implored the heavens to end this misery that I have been carrying, it harms my heart, even when there was no blood. It is heavy.
At that moment, the skies seemed to lift my shoulders and give me courage. Nearer and nearer, this time, no one's escaping. This ordeal, I will conquer.
To all the feelings I neglected, forward forward. To all the fears I had in me, forward forward. To all the expectancy that had vanished, forward forward. To the moments of the fall, onwards.
The resonant whistle of the wind carried my utmost breath, my greatest hope. My eyes are closed.
And when the sand touched the face, strong and bold but cold with expectancy. I turned, the breeze carrying me until the sand had passed me, but I then looked back, It became a wave.
It was a wave obscured between the sand, it was hope concealing between grief. To feel free of the lingering grief, I breathe.
I walked back, to where the hope had vanished, now in full blue. It will come to an end after all.
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